Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year!

Today has felt like a good omen for 2009. I felt absolutely 100% myself. My parents arrived for the weekend and I ate enough pork and sauerkraut to gain back any weight that I lost the last week and a half.
When I was in college, I took a course called the Philosophy of Death. We studied Elizabeth Kubler-Ross and the 5 stages of grief: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance. I find myself cycling through them in no particular order every day. Feeling good today has firmly rooted me back in denial. There is no way I can be that sick and feel this good. Maybe one chemo cured me. (just kidding)
Tomorrow I'll have to go be my own health advocate to get this lung biopsy scheduled and a result before my next chemo is due. Maybe I'll get my car inspected too. That should be easier to schedule. Then I think I will swim and sing and decide if I like my new hair cut.